Mind-blowing Buffoon

Long hiatus

2011-04-09T11:44:00.001+08:00

I failed my MBBS. I am given another chance for 6 months to redeem and reseat my exam. I am pushing myself harder and harder. It is my destiny to be here. Thanks to my family, no exception to all my friends :). Thanks for the support as I need it so much.

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Marry you

2011-03-21T20:29:00.001+08:00

Just listen to the lyrics, melt me down! Hehe :)

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Argh!!

2011-03-19T13:33:00.001+08:00

Awkward moment-
There is no need to explain further. When two hearts were meant to be together, love will take place. What if hatred interfere between them? What if the love is an artificial? What is love without honesty?

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Jar

2011-03-05T17:44:00.001+08:00

Can I have you instead of jar of chocolates?

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Blasphemonts

2011-03-04T22:02:00.001+08:00

Too much input this week. I have no idea at all. Help me, please?

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Ohhhhhhh

2011-03-04T00:40:00.001+08:00

Om nom om nom. A quote for eating huh?
My mind is hunger for knowledge.
And quotes! Hehehehe

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Another day

2011-03-03T22:35:00.001+08:00

It is yet another day for me.
I've been waiting for this moment.
I love you. It is what they called as expression of love.
This is ain't a puppy love as rumoured.
I'm genuine. This is myself.
:D

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Future

2011-03-02T19:26:00.001+08:00

I have no intention to post. I have no guts to tell the one that love does conquer me after I met with the one.
I need you. You probably won't know, cos denying is what you did.

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Mock osce

2011-03-01T20:35:00.001+08:00

16 stations in two days. Yet I understand minute of them. Inferiority as I moved on from one station to another.
Oh life. Why do not you make it easier? :-/

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Standing up in the horizon

2011-02-28T08:11:00.001+08:00

The past - I tried not to remember them. I tried to endeavour the best of them.

The present - I live with it. It's hard but that is what I have to face from day to day.

The future - I only can smile.

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After a long hiatus

2011-02-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

Yerp as it stated. After a long silence from blogging world. I make a comeback.
Too many things happened in the past. Those stories changing me to more mature self. I am obviously the same person who stands up for my dignity and principles.
Oh what about the future. It is official that my final professional exam will be held in UMMC on 21st March. Revisions. I know. Last minute study. I have to burn the midnite oil.

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words of wisdom

2010-12-01T21:02:00.002+08:00

The most romantic story isn't Romeo and Juliet died together but my Grandpa and Grandma grew old together.

Loser

2010-11-29T20:42:00.002+08:00

ME!

Obsessive

2010-11-10T20:17:00.000+08:00

Oh. I've read a few blogs and I have to conclude that most of the blogs are obsessive in any ways.
From lover, shopping, pets or anything.
I should not judge those bloggers.
But sometimes, let loose.
Frankly speaking to those who can't get away from the EX memories.
C'mon. Ex is meant to be ex. They move on, so do we. Just remember that the person in front of you love you the most than your ex. Remember that!

Haunted - Taylor Swift (LYRICS!)

2010-10-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and its all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And its comin' over you like its all a big mistake

Holding my breathe, won't lose you again
Something's made your eyes go cold

[Chorus]
Come on, come on don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong, your all I wanted
Come on, come on don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t turn back now, I’m haunted

[Verse 2]
Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I say to you
He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishin he was you instead

Oh, oh, holding my breath, won't see you again
Something keeps me holding on to nothing

[Chorus]
Come on, come on don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong, your all I wanted
Come on, come on don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t turn back now, I’m haunted

[Bridge]
I know, I know, I just know
You're not gone, you can't be gone
No

[Chorus]
Come on, come on don’t leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started
Come on, come on don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone can’t go back
I’m haunted

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it

Let the picture speaks for itself

2010-10-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

How to get over you.

2010-10-24T22:39:00.001+08:00

I don't have idea at all. Maybe we're destined together. Or maybe we're just a part of the liar game. Sigh.

Vulgar smell

2010-10-22T11:24:00.000+08:00

He's been a friend to us for more than a year. However, recently a few months ago, we started to talk behind his back. The main topic usually about his odor. He has these defensive smell that no one can stand.
His hygiene is super poor! It is odd when you go to bathroom and take your shower without a soap in your hand. As I observed these days, he rarely brush his teeth. I know you've been hiding from us that you have this kind of illness involving your gum but that alone doesn't mean that you need not to take care of your dental hygiene. We haven't seen you wash your clothes.
We never know what may happen in future. But please take a little time of your life and thinking of your hygiene. No woman,yes no woman will stand for the defensive smell that comes from you. Don't you want to get married in future?
We are trying our hardest to let you know. It seems that doesn't work anymore. You are a super sensitive guy! How on earth are we going to change you?!
Sigh*

iPhone4

2010-10-15T12:32:00.001+08:00

should I or shouldn't I buy a new iPhone?
I've owned an iPhone 3G.

:|

Reality hurts.

2010-10-14T09:07:00.000+08:00

I have been facing through a lot of rejections.

It is hurt. I try to ignore the pain. It still hurts tho.

I believe someone has the same experiences as I do.

It is odd when you love someone, unfortunately your love aren't answered.

Love being unfair on one side.

Huh?!

2010-10-04T11:38:00.002+08:00

Stay put? The love will fade away.
Stay interact? To spice up the love.
You'll know by experience.

Magika

2010-10-01T09:26:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for this movie for so long. I still remember those days. the preview was so good till I was dying to watch it.

But in the end, there is no magic in Magika. I felt disappointed after 'wasting' almost 2 hours in the cinema. The actress was a statue! the main actor, shit I am so not into this guy.

But specially regards to Puteri Gunung Ledang and her Mamanda, they made it thru! ;)

The coordination of the songs are good but sometimes less is better.

My personal rating: 3.5 star.

17th Syawal 1431

2010-09-29T12:22:00.001+08:00

Open house. My open house! It was a great,fun,food-ish thingy! Thanks for those who came by.

Appreciated much.

Huh?!

2010-09-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

I have no place in your heart kan love?

Persisted~!

2010-09-15T08:33:00.000+08:00

I felt the pain almost everyday. Took 2 tabs of Ponstan 250mg..It didn't work well...

Antibiotics course almost finished though it is for 2-week consumption.

Last night ( 14/9), the pain was so severe till I need to take 4 tabs of Ponstan.

The pain did kacau my sleep time.

Shit oh?! I know~!

Toothache!

2010-09-13T01:31:00.000+08:00

SEE THE BIG HOLE? HAHA

It happened few months ago after chewing some keropok during my leisure time in B110. KRAAAKKKK!!! A small piece of broken tooth spitted out. I thought it would be okay without seeing the dentist.

BUT! A few weeks after the incident, especially after meal there was shooting, sharp pain graded 7 on pain score.

Lame. whatever.

The pain worsened through time.
I couldn't bear the pain though.

I told my mom. She advised me to visit the dentist.

I didn't want to at first..but as the pain persisted and interrupting my routine, I decided to pay a visit to the dentist.

Well, as lame as ever..the dentist consulted to 'tampal' the gigi but as he looked through my busuk mouth, he intended to pluck the rotten tooth.

Nasib badan.

No pain at first few hours.

then, the most terrible thing happened.

I thought post extraction pain will be there for few hours.

Meleset!

It persisted for more than a few days and it does interrupting my routine. More severe than what had happen before. GRRRRR.....

I need voltaren instead of ponstan...Anyone? :(

Huh 2

2010-08-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

If I have the power to change someone's blog to my book, I'll do it by now.

Allergy rhinitis

2010-08-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

As stated. Ugh.

Mucous salivating the upper part of nasolabial.
It drains into the mouth.
Haha.
It tastes a bit funny too.
LOL

Wednesday

2010-08-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

August 18th 2010.
Nothing spectacular happened.
Same old same old.

I've quoted this from one of my colleagues.
Self-centered buffoons. Do they exist?

Another Huh?

2010-08-17T15:58:00.000+08:00

" What come one after another? It's your attitude"

Hoh?

2010-08-17T09:25:00.001+08:00

“ I think I’m afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens. ”

Tropical Fruits Feast.

2010-08-11T13:18:00.000+08:00

I haven't put up a post since last week since I was been busy with classes and tutorials. Lame for a damp life of a medical student. Oh anyway, Jashimah has invited me and our medical colleagues to her house and threw a fruit party. Haha. Jashimos, it's been an eye opening to me to come to your house again for the next season and I'll rake those fruits till the end! haha.

It took me about half an hour to be at her house. It's in Beranang, really approaching Negeri Sembilan as I can see the signboard "Welcome to Seremban" while I was driving. Kampung house very self explanatory.;) Pic : Look at those ripening rambutans on the tree! Very gastonomic experience! ;)

Miranda Cosgrove - Kissin' U

2010-08-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

Cute sangat lagu ni.;)

Thank you mate

2010-08-02T11:00:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I feel guilty for whatever reason I had done in the past. Hmm...

Installation

2010-07-31T13:21:00.001+08:00

After a hectic week in the hospital, I reclaimed myself a two-day rest at home. awwwhh. Isn't it the best moment ever to be with family especially siblings? ;)
I downloaded few games for iPhone and PSP. I haven't play games for some time. Thanks to my busiest schedule.;p
To my surprise, I never know that iTunes offer a lot of games. Oh thanks iTunes for making me happy these day. ;D

Favourite Qoute

2010-07-30T06:03:00.000+08:00

A dick has a sad life. his hair is a mess. his family is nuts. his neighbor's an asshole, his bestfriend's a pussy.

Creme

2010-07-30T06:00:00.000+08:00

I surrender myself when it comes to love.

Frustration

2010-07-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

Over the years, no one was trying to intimidate me with those uncivilized, cretin words. Yet, till date. Until there was one night, everything seems blurred. Damn, I should not blame the individual person. My anger was directed towards him. Argh. I shall not be nice to those bitches with mulut busuk *what did you guys eat after all until you vomited all unfriendly words to the person?*
Damn. Life being unfair to me and to the specific man. Argh!!!!

Lemau.limau.

2010-07-26T12:54:00.000+08:00

It wasn't the best day I've had so far. Oh, I wish this week finish as it supposed to be.

Updating firmware

2010-07-25T17:58:00.000+08:00

I've been using firmware 3.0 since I bought my iPhone 3G.
Damn.I felt old tetibe.ahaha.
I tried to update it to thelatest firmware 4.0 but after several trials, I got fed up and update it to 3.1.2.Ugh.
I did it well.Lucky me.haha.;p

Voila..a precious comeback!

2010-07-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

It has been two years since I posted a blog. I'm quite busy with myself and study..Duh~..
I didn't expect that I grew up with the existence of this blog.haha. Oh.I'm in the state of denial.haha.
Thanks to someone for waking me up from my deep sleep. Iszarul...I met him cyber-tically* It is meant for Facebook.Current obsession* hehe. He told me that I have a blog..I was like Huh? Did I?
Lol...thanks isz.
Anyway, this is the start of a new day.;)
I am sooooo going to post a lot of things in here. Later.

phew

2008-07-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

it has been almost a month since my last post.what have i done during that time?well i have to re-seat for my final and alhamdulillah i passed with flying colors.I've been struggling to get a good result so that with that score i would proceed to another year.I hate been stuck in the same year learning the same thing but still rezeki memasing.frankly speaking i miss the previous year.Learning new things on the medical side and name of diseases are not really an easy task for me.There are lots of difficulties in remembering and memorizing each disease with its clinical features,treatment and other sorta things.Alhamdulillah..sujud syukurku kepada Allah.with the aid of some of friends that really been helping me..ive done with 2nd year.HTAR.here i come;)

Love is in the Air

2008-06-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

I realized the meaning of No Air sung by Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown moment ago.
Without love I can't live in the world.
I need love.It is a subjective matter.Love.
What if there is no love around us?
What will happen if the existence of love being deny?
What if no one believes in love?
There is no definite answer.
I cannot believe if someone claims that he/she does not believe in love.
Trust me.You were nurtured with love from your parents,friends and The Almighty.
Look at what love has done to you.
Look at you now.Are you still in denial?
Yes you have outgrown from your parents but to top on that, friends and others.They love you.

In a nutshell,*Make Your Own Summary*

myspace

2008-06-07T16:17:00.001+08:00

to date it has been more than two years i'm in myspace world.
from a newbie to a some sort amateur*lol* myspacer. I am considerably as an active user of myspace account.
From thousands of strangers,down to hundreds of friends.It is not the quantity that I need.It is the friendship count.Moreover I have found my true friends here.They listen to.They are understanding.They are all I need. From the site I've found my so-called love.A big word for a nookie like me.Since to date,they are remain just as my puppy love. I'm currently in love.yeah in love again with someone younger than me.Hopefully we are meant to be together.Please pray for me.
^_______________^

I have changed so much from using a VGA camera to a more pixelated and expensive camera.haha.I shouldnt mention the latter part:p

And indeed I have lost so much weight.It is an addiction.Im referring to exercise.Everyone in my friends list supporting me in losing weight program and yet I have shed 25kgs=50 pounds from my original weight:)
Confident rising and so does my self-consciousness.
Less inferiority complex.
Thanks for your support.I am satisfy with I am nowadays:)

Myspace

2008-06-07T15:49:00.000+08:00

hiatus

2008-06-06T09:33:00.000+08:00

it has been a week since my last post.I have no time since I have to re-seat for final examination.
Thanks to my beloved friends and bffs...they had given me such a nice day on my birthday.There was no celebration but with their wishes it showed that they concern about me though.I wish I could list out all their names here.Seriously guys, thanks for the memories.I appreciated it though.
And some people asked me whether i received presents from anyone but frankly speaking I don't think that giving present is the best method to celebrate someone's birthday.It is the thought which is deliquently important.
^___________________________________^

Aunt Weeta. Thanks for your treat.I love you Weeta.^____________^

reconciliation

2008-05-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

i am so relieved now.from what had happened few days back.there's no word can describe my feeling now.reconciliation maybe the best word indeed.it's hard to imagine to live without him and him.gawd i am so grateful for giving me the best friends ever.i wont do the same mistakes..again.i love both of them much more.
well i am going to meet them today.you totally have to look at my facial expression.undeniable..i am smiling..looking like a clown though.but whatever..the fact is i am going to meet them.:)
more or less they have been with me for 11 years.up and down happy and sad moment.they are with me no matter what happen.
thanks for fill in the blanks after what had happened between us guys.love you so much.more than everything ^_____________________________^

denial

2008-05-25T09:37:00.001+08:00

For these past few days,i was in denial and still the feeling goes on and on.
Keep me away from what i am supposed to do.It is hard to put in in words.
What have i done?Why denial has to appear in my routine all of sudden?
Peer pressure plus everything occurs in my life recently make me wonder of one thing.
Do i love myself..yet?anymore? or no more?
Did they have ever wrongly done to me?
or it is just me?I'm too skeptical.
hah.
no words.
no tears.
no things...

2008-05-24T10:18:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile.
I'm here for a reason.Having said, I'm here for anything,something and everything.
Hard to explain in words.

Well less crap-py sentences.
Monday is the blue day.Is that the right saying?lol
I hate Monday so does everyone.It's the first day after resting awhile at weekend.
My lectures start on Monday.Which is on Monday.
Why did the Romanian create the day called Monday?Wonder why the day called Monday?
Doesn't it sound so cracky enough to call it as Mourn-day?lol

Psychotic Imsoniac!
I was describing myself..for real!
^_____________________^

vacation

2008-05-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

I won't consider my trip to Melaka as a vacation to me.I'm here to be with my beloved best friend forever ( bff ). He's facing lots of problems recently and i hope i'm here to be wit him, at least.
It is not my right to talk about his problems. More or less, I have learned that I do not put on my trust on people easily.

trust me.more dramas will come over me.
:)

closet

2008-05-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

I dont think that i'm still closeted. my friends and even public may know me who i am. They have been the most graceful and merciful judges. They know me from my appearances, attitude and my personality.
Being in this kind of situation makes me more careful with surroundings. I'm not that perfect to judge peeps but then who i am to stop them from being such predicamental institution.
I love watching hotties especially boys. They somehow have the aura that make not only me but other peeps looking at them too. To top on that, I'll be fantasizing beyond the horizon post.haha.im such a loser.Sometimes i wonder how are they feeling to be such in so-called perfect situation with perfect faces and everything looks perfect on them.Frankly speaking, I did ask one of my colleagues and he/she never claimed that the he/she a hottie. they are just normal being like everyone else.BUT doesnt it make you guys thinking tht they have the attention..they dont need it but they have it.right?

ive got to go.i'll be posting more bout myself later.
see you again:)

First post

2008-05-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

it is my first post in blogspot. and it is my first time to be a blogger with the help of my current situation.
i need not to explain further bout myself.most of you know me more than i do:)
owh yeah.
please add me in myspace:www.myspace.com/hehe_theeye

facebook : fazrulshafiq@gmail.com

thanks in advance.
by the way.i'll be talking more and more in here.
wish me luck in future:)